I've been having back pains for the longest time now. . I hate it ! I don't know what's wrong with me :\ My back has been hurting for the past few months now & sometimes it'll go away for awhile, but then it'll come back. I just recently took a pain killer hoping that the pain will go away, but it hasn't gone away & I'm still in pain. Right now I just want to shoot myself so I won't feel all this stuff. -___- I'm not on my period or anything & I'm still having back problems. . what the hell is wrong with me . . whatevers I hope it doesn't ruin my night tonight with my best friend ♥
Tonight, my best friend will be picking me up so I can sleepover and spend time with her. I hope we don't party anything, She say's that all we'll do is just smoke hookah at her place & that we can invite people over. I don' t know who I'd want to invite I have someone in mind, but I'm kinda ehhh about asking him to hang out. haha I feel like when the night is over he'll ask to take me home & I'll end up ditching my best friend, but I don't want to do that. . It'll just be fcked up & I know what will happen if he did take me home. Things will just lead to the next one & shit. Ughhh I don't know what's wrong with me I'm stuck in love with both of my ex's this sucks. -_-
It's 12:11 pm & there's nothing to do this fine afternoon. I haven't talked to my cousin or his girlfriend for a week right now. I don't know if they're mad at me or anything. Usually my cousins girlfriend texts me, but she hasn't texted me. I guess my cousin doesn't want her talking to me or something. Whatever. . He always does this. . Stupid cousin always trippin' that me & his girlfriend get a long.
My ex called me this morning it's nice getting phone calls from him. . Every time he calls me & before he says goodbye he'll say " okay, I'll call you later ." & i'll reply saying " okay bye" & he'll say " okay bye I lo..bye i messh you" & I laugh every time that happens. I don't want to believe him when he says that & I'm not going to fall for him & his stupid games. I know once school will start for him he'll drop me & find someone else or he'll hide it or something. I guess I still don't trust him, but that's okay. . Because sooner or later I'll find someone else also.

ehhh.. I hate my life right now.