she's lucky to have you.

I really hope she knows what she has. You are absolutely amazing, You have a great smile, & You know how to keep a conversation going. I spent two days with you & it was great. After everything that happened between us which was unexpected I really can't help but to have feelings for you. I don't understand why you did the things you did with me when you're obviously in love with this girl, but I guess it was my fault too. . I knew you loved her & I didn't even stop you from doing anything with me.

I feel used, because we haven't talked for the passed three days & it kinda sucks. You told me you liked me that night & that you couldn't control your feelings for me. You don't want anything to happen between us, because I'm your best friends ex girlfriend. I know we both thought that nothing was going to happen, but you should have known the consequences when you held my hand & kissed me. Why'd you do it ?

I hate what we did. I regret every single thing that we did. I hate you. I never thought that I would say this, but I hate you for using me. I hate that I couldn't control my feelings for you. I hate the way you look at me with those greyish blue eyes of yours. I hate your stupid perfect smile. I hate the way you hold me. I hate the way you whine when you want me to cuddle with you. I hate how kiddish your voice sounds & how you rant about all these random facts. I hate the way I teared up in front of you after everything we did & how you were able to talk about how you still love your ex. . that hurt.

I hate you so much. . I really do.